I was born during the darkest year of World War II, 1943 — but fortunately, at that time, I was too young to worry about it. My parents were plenty worried in my place, but doing their best for the war effort.
When I was a kid, I worried that the Russians would fly over (I lived just outside NYC) and bomb us — or later, just send their missiles to do the job. I didn’t know whether to be more worried that I would die right away (living close to what even then was called ground zero) or that I would be condemned to a lingering death from radiation poisoning.
After Kennedy was elected, the cultural and political world changed. Yes, the Cuban missile crisis was very scary, but at last all the gray men talking in monotones and with frozen faces and no humor who had seemed to populate the government and who had talked constantly about the missile gap and the Red Menace weren’t there any more, at least not up front and not nearly so much. At least for a little while.
Then, during the early days of ramping up the Vietnam war, I had faith that the government would not do anything that wasn’t right. Would they? Eventually, I found out more and more about what was going on there, less from mainstream media than from activist groups and alternative publications. As we got deeper in, I worried about the draft that threatened my young husband and myself. He had first a college deferment, then we went into the Peace Corps, and, six months after our tour of service was over, his next birthday took him out of the most active pool of potential draftees.
By this time, I had noticed a pattern: I was waiting for the world (at least as I knew it) to end, one way or another. As soon as one world-ending threat went past, there was sure to be another. I was right to have been worried: the work of the worrier never ceases. And sure enough: first the book The Silent Spring by Rachel Carson, then the first Earth Day, and a new term, ecology. The Earth itself was under threat! Lots of worries.
But look: we did get a law passed against the use of DDT. So maybe, our government wouldn’t permit people to do such destructive things; polluters would be made to stop polluting and to clean up the mess they had made — wouldn’t they?
Then people began warning us that the supply of petroleum, while still large at that time, was finite, and a huge source of pollution — check out the ‘smog’ in LA. They said if we kept on increasing its use instead of looking for alternatives, we would run out, and sooner than we thought. Some good worry there.
Somehow, the alternatives never appeared, and more and more cars on more and more roads just used more and more of it. More worry. But smog seemed to be something that happened in Los Angeles, where they had all the cars and freeways, and ‘inversions.’ Can it spread elsewhere? Worry.
By the early 1950s, England had gone off soft coal for household heating and eliminated their deadly ‘London particulars.’ But could we find ways to solve our own problem? Lots of good worry.
A little later: a hole in the ozone layer. But look, we’ve banned CFC’s. Will that be enough? No. Lots of worry.
Then, more recently, our retirement accounts were changed into investment accounts with tax incentives for employees (401k et al.) and accounting benefits for our employers, and thus we were turned loose to ‘manage’ our retirement investments ourselves, usually by picking one or another mutual fund or combination — with someone getting a commission for brokerage or financial services all along the way. What did we know about choosing funds? Most of us, not much. Were the rosy predictions of investment counselors correct? I worried, while I hoped for the best.
After all, our government wouldn’t let companies really put our retirements at risk, or mislead us about these things, would they? Lots of room for worry.
And, all along, my mother had been telling me that some moneygrubbers had been trying to repeal the Glass-Steagall Act, practically from the day it was passed. That was the legislation set up during the Great Depression to keep separate banking, investment, and insurance functions, the mixing of which had set up the conditions for the Great Depression itself. Glass-Steagall’s purpose was to save us from ourselves, or rather from the groups of ourselves trying to play faster and looser with money. She died before the act was repealed, but she had told me they would keep after it until they finally tore it down (they did). At which point, she assured me, all the bad stuff she had already lived through — she had been born in 1919 — would happen again. Lots to worry about there.
Our government wouldn’t really let that happen again, despite rescinding Glass-Steagall — would they?
Ahem. Just clearing my throat.
The past is prologue, as they say. This week, I’m worried about the possibility of an entire meltdown of the world financial, banking and money situation. (Nothing small-time about my worrying.) Will our President get it right, find a way to get through this without entirely uprooting our entire society, rule of law, nationhood and all? People are telling other people to buy gold. (That assumes you have a certain amount of money right now to buy it with, of course.)
Perhaps they are right — I wouldn’t know — but think about the realities of that for a minute. Even if I wanted to, I wouldn’t know how or where to go about buying gold, what form it would take (coins? bars? dust?), where I would keep it if I had it (home, and hold ‘em off with a shotgun? dont think so. In a vault somewhere with someone else holding ‘em off? don’t think so. And how would I get in to get at mine if I needed some? Piece of paper? sounds to me like we’re on our way back to paper money in a different form). Electronic money, like paper money, has some key advantages: lightweight portability. How would I carry gold around, so as to buy (say) a gallon of milk? Star Trek’s Ferenghis may have seen it coming: that’ll be two bars of gold-pressed latinum. Break out the gold-weighing scales. Yikes.
Before you just laugh this whole thing off as the nervous cogitations of a lifelong worrywort, consider this: at no time have my worries been totally unrealistic. Nor have the situations causing me to worry ever really disappeared; they have just been piled on top of each other. Check it out:
Those Russian planes or missiles might actually have come over, back then. It was considered likely by many, to the extent of calling for first strikes (all the characters in the movie Dr. Strangelove were recognizable at the time, if not as individuals, then as frequently seen types: a very scary thought. They are still recognizable, floating around among the ‘powers that be’ today: an even scarier thought). Nuclear weapons have proliferated over the years and the threat has not gone away — aren’t we fighting a war in Iraq over Weapons of Mass Destruction that aren’t even there? and we’re still mired it it — but as we saw, hijacked commercial airliners loaded with jet fuel and momentum did amazing amounts of damage on 9/11, and would have done more except for Flight 93′s brave passengers.
And the earth really is in terrible imminent danger — more danger than ever before — of being destroyed by the carelessness and greed of humans, and all life with it.
You may say that worry is pointless, but the situations are very real.
And the short term greed and the pursuit of money to the exclusion of all else by some few really has threatened the lives and well-being of the rest of us, who are just trying to get along peacefully and support ourselves and our families, and the crunch they’ve brought us has made our daily lives difficult or (in some cases) impossible, through unavailable jobs and health care, and through closing businesses and home foreclosures, and much else. Worried? Oh, I think so.
And now, it’s being pointed out that one possible outcome of failing to find a solution to the financial crisis those greedy people brought on could mean the end of civilization itself, including of our nation. Dissolution and separation, regionalism or even full chaos at every level, from the local to the national to the international, the result of a total meltdown and freezing of the world financial system… Barter? Gold? Having to defend your vegetable garden, even your house, against all comers? Yikes. Talk about worried.
The government wouldn’t let that happen — would it?
Maybe President Obama is going to end up being our next Lincoln after all: a tall slim smart man coming out of Illinois whose main job is going to be finding a way to keep the United States just that: united. One nation. Still here. Continuing to exist. Part of a world community of nations. On an Earth that we may (but only may) be able to pull back from the brink of climaticide if we act quickly, deftly, and seriously enough. Nation and world wounded, in critical condition, but recovering, gaining strength all the time.
I can only hope so.
And excuse me while I continue to worry.